Tarot reading
Saturday, 8 March 2014 23:00![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
littlesilvertipI woke up bright and early, ate some fish, and went to see the fortune teller. I was pretty nervous, especially because I didn't know what I was supposed to do there, or how this goes. I also... suspected what I was going to find, and didn't actually want to be told it, I think. But I was I told myself it might be fake, and that convinced me to go inside. She definitely has a gift; it's like she's known me for years.
Instead of talking to my hand, she pulled out special cards. Here's what she found...
The Past:
Lover. She gave multiple explanations, but it’s definitely about Nova.
Next card was about tradition, rituals, or old thought.
Third was about power, strength and courage. Something about a relationship with my place in life, that I don’t want to lose.
Things I do not know:
Stasis, or unchanging. Something will remain the same.
Authority figure, or figure of power. With reason and cause. Maybe someone who can help me, or someone I hadn’t thought to go to for guidance.
Good omens: good prospects for the previous two.
Things I can change:
Balance, harmony.
The next two refer to this, apparently. First is Illogical thinking, wrongdoing or wastefulness. Second is Lies, Lack of Responsibility or Laziness.
Things I can’t change:
Friendship.
A woman who has my best interests at heart
A bad influence: bad advice, false belief, holding too tightly to an ideal. Something inside of me.
The future:
A new direction. A great change. An end and a beginning.
Fertility. Or, growth, energy, adventure.
Something about evil, but reversed, so overcoming it, to success. Healing?
Some of it seemed to make sense at the time when she pulled out the cards, but some of it required her to explain some things, and ask questions. Some of the meanings are more straight forward than others.
Since she didn’t know me, the fact that she and her cards could pick out so much and so easily about my past gives me faith that this is real divination, and not lies. She was also honest about lies she did tell to the rich. She easily identified my relationship with Nova, my faith in the old ways, and how I drew strength from my place in my pack, and as a nukalpiaq. So if she is so good at finding things, this makes me have some faith in the rest of what she said.
Things won’t change for me, or at least will remain the same for a long time. So... as I suspected, I am remaining female. Still, hearing it actually said..? But apparently this is a good thing? She said it was. Good compared to what, and in what way? There is another woman who can help me, but I haven’t gone to her. She’s apparently in a position of power. Is this a Gaian, maybe? Upside-Down and Peacemaker come to mind. Again, going to them would be a good thing.
I can change whether I have balance and harmony, but I have to be mindful of two things. The first I don’t know: It’s probably illogical thinking, because that came up again later. The second is probably laziness. Is this a sign I should claim position in the sept again?
I can’t change whether I have my friends - this is good, I just wish so many of my old packmates weren’t so far away anymore. Maybe I should try to run with Earth Whisperer again? A woman who has my best interests at heart - definitely my sister. I’m glad, even if she doesn’t know what to do with me, she at least wants well for me. And some negative influence in my head. This worries me - something I know, believe, or feel is wrong. But if I can’t change it, then I’m doomed to it anyhow.
She says that the future holds a new direction for me. I don’t know what the last one could refer to. I deal with lots of evil, but nothing at the moment. I need to keep my nose to the wind for new signs that might lead me to a new foe.
The middle card is… difficult. Fertility. She said it could be growth or adventure also, but the simpler explanation? It seems to be coming up /all the time/ since I came back. Fire Dancer bringing by Little Spark, Earth Whisperer… doing what he does, my cousin and Unfinished Business asking about kin and being pregnant as wolf people. And several others have brought it up, too. Maybe because it’s almost spring, but before, I couldn’t remember the last time so many were bringing up children and mating around me. When she was finished, she also suggested that it could be ‘growth in a direction’ or ‘a new birth for my life.’ The funny look on her face whenever she talked about this makes me… skeptical that she believes it is these last two.
Is it a sign? I mean, obviously it’s a sign of something, but… Honestly, I don’t know how this makes me feel. I still want pups. I just cannot imagine myself as being the one pregnant, though. The thought is still abhorrent and wrong, to me.
She says the cards say I need to talk to Nova, and be honest with her. If I don’t, she will find out from others, first, and things will be very bad. She also said the cards say there are more important things to worry about than what my sex is, but my past is making it hard. She suggested there may be a third way. It's odd that she put it that way. She's definitely right - there's monsters all around, and magic to be uncovered. The urrah are busy with lots of small battles. Maybe I should lead some for our peoples.
Instead of talking to my hand, she pulled out special cards. Here's what she found...
The Past:
Lover. She gave multiple explanations, but it’s definitely about Nova.
Next card was about tradition, rituals, or old thought.
Third was about power, strength and courage. Something about a relationship with my place in life, that I don’t want to lose.
Things I do not know:
Stasis, or unchanging. Something will remain the same.
Authority figure, or figure of power. With reason and cause. Maybe someone who can help me, or someone I hadn’t thought to go to for guidance.
Good omens: good prospects for the previous two.
Things I can change:
Balance, harmony.
The next two refer to this, apparently. First is Illogical thinking, wrongdoing or wastefulness. Second is Lies, Lack of Responsibility or Laziness.
Things I can’t change:
Friendship.
A woman who has my best interests at heart
A bad influence: bad advice, false belief, holding too tightly to an ideal. Something inside of me.
The future:
A new direction. A great change. An end and a beginning.
Fertility. Or, growth, energy, adventure.
Something about evil, but reversed, so overcoming it, to success. Healing?
Some of it seemed to make sense at the time when she pulled out the cards, but some of it required her to explain some things, and ask questions. Some of the meanings are more straight forward than others.
Since she didn’t know me, the fact that she and her cards could pick out so much and so easily about my past gives me faith that this is real divination, and not lies. She was also honest about lies she did tell to the rich. She easily identified my relationship with Nova, my faith in the old ways, and how I drew strength from my place in my pack, and as a nukalpiaq. So if she is so good at finding things, this makes me have some faith in the rest of what she said.
Things won’t change for me, or at least will remain the same for a long time. So... as I suspected, I am remaining female. Still, hearing it actually said..? But apparently this is a good thing? She said it was. Good compared to what, and in what way? There is another woman who can help me, but I haven’t gone to her. She’s apparently in a position of power. Is this a Gaian, maybe? Upside-Down and Peacemaker come to mind. Again, going to them would be a good thing.
I can change whether I have balance and harmony, but I have to be mindful of two things. The first I don’t know: It’s probably illogical thinking, because that came up again later. The second is probably laziness. Is this a sign I should claim position in the sept again?
I can’t change whether I have my friends - this is good, I just wish so many of my old packmates weren’t so far away anymore. Maybe I should try to run with Earth Whisperer again? A woman who has my best interests at heart - definitely my sister. I’m glad, even if she doesn’t know what to do with me, she at least wants well for me. And some negative influence in my head. This worries me - something I know, believe, or feel is wrong. But if I can’t change it, then I’m doomed to it anyhow.
She says that the future holds a new direction for me. I don’t know what the last one could refer to. I deal with lots of evil, but nothing at the moment. I need to keep my nose to the wind for new signs that might lead me to a new foe.
The middle card is… difficult. Fertility. She said it could be growth or adventure also, but the simpler explanation? It seems to be coming up /all the time/ since I came back. Fire Dancer bringing by Little Spark, Earth Whisperer… doing what he does, my cousin and Unfinished Business asking about kin and being pregnant as wolf people. And several others have brought it up, too. Maybe because it’s almost spring, but before, I couldn’t remember the last time so many were bringing up children and mating around me. When she was finished, she also suggested that it could be ‘growth in a direction’ or ‘a new birth for my life.’ The funny look on her face whenever she talked about this makes me… skeptical that she believes it is these last two.
Is it a sign? I mean, obviously it’s a sign of something, but… Honestly, I don’t know how this makes me feel. I still want pups. I just cannot imagine myself as being the one pregnant, though. The thought is still abhorrent and wrong, to me.
She says the cards say I need to talk to Nova, and be honest with her. If I don’t, she will find out from others, first, and things will be very bad. She also said the cards say there are more important things to worry about than what my sex is, but my past is making it hard. She suggested there may be a third way. It's odd that she put it that way. She's definitely right - there's monsters all around, and magic to be uncovered. The urrah are busy with lots of small battles. Maybe I should lead some for our peoples.
