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I can’t remember the last time I’ve slept so poorly. Even with the medicine, sleep was troubled. I had nightmare after nightmare, of the slaughter, of Flux, of both, of Earth-Whisperer, of my family disowning me, and more. I stopped sleeping after a while, and took some herbs to help me stay awake instead. I still have the time echoes, so I stayed in, and worked on chores. I spent many good hours working on my parka, but didn’t stop as soon as I should, and began making mistakes that I’ll have to go back and undo.

Eventually, I decided I had to try something to get rid of this new problem with the wyld. I went down to the kass'at house and took out the healing fetish again, not really expecting it to help. It didn’t, as I thought it wouldn’t. I laid around for a long while waiting for it to kick in, in which time the Moose-Calf metis came by. He asked what was wrong. I told him that the wyld was terrible; he took that as my complaining about my… other problem. I showed him the new problem, and he got it. He kept asking about the other problem. Fury, I guess.

He asked if any of his tribemates made trouble with me because of my problems. After what happened at the moot, I wondered if he was trying to make his own fights. He told me about his having struggles with his tribemates. He used lots of words, and made it sound like the others were nipping at his heels constantly. it reinforced what I thought when I talked to Shrouded Arrow: They need a dominance hierarchy. I told that if Untangler gave me problems, I would challenge Untangler. When that didn’t explain things, I told him about his tribemate, Shifting Briar, who said those things to me. I don’t think he learned that either. So little wolf blood in the wolf people here. They prefer to talk at each other rudely, I think.

He came by again later, when I decided the Fetish wasn’t working, with a rabbit. I wonder if they think I’m an invalid that can’t hunt anymore, from lying around so much. Or maybe that I’m like a puppy now, and can’t hunt. It was tasty, though.

I’m exhausted. I’ve taken some herbs for the dreams, and to keep me asleep. I had to dig them out of the snow and sanctify them. I don’t expect to need anything to help me get to sleep, just stay that way. Until then, I can work on spooling more sinew.
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The more I look at the rune-scape, the more there is to study. So much of this is useless to me… but something about it hints at something… beyond. Beyond what? Beyond beyond? Maddening. How can spirits move through things that aren’t there? I may have got a little obsessed with it, because I worked through most of the night on understanding it. I didn’t get sleep until it was daylight out.

What the hell is that thing? )

It was submissive, though, which is good. It knows its place. I wonder if it's a male or female? I can't tell with snakes. If it was a wolf, I'd guess Copperhead was female. Grandmother, that thing is an abomination.

Not heading to the scab tonight. Moot tomorrow, and it makes little sense to go to the scab, and then immediately come back. I should work on my parka, but… the drawing is more interesting. Definitely more interesting.
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I don’t remember my dreams at all from last night, but I didn’t sleep even remotely well. It’s probably to do more with the fact that I had all my guts rifled through before I went to sleep. I woke up needing to pee blood, which I’m very sure is not the normal way it works. I made a very bad decision by agreeing so soon. I have incredibly powerful Tuunrat, imagine what would have happened if I had arrayed many of them in working with the Mage? I remember he expressed… is it optimism? I have a hard time sharing it, now that we’ve used up what was probably the easiest way we had.

A rought start to the day, with Deer watching )

Learning more from Fire-Dancer; children come up. )
Scar visits, and I meet an weirdo. )

Getting payment for a mage from malfeas, and then realizing I forgot something )
Running into the mage again. Maybe we can work together, or at least learn something from eachother. )

On the way back to the mountains, I had a change to clear my head, trot without thinking. I ran into a deer on the way back, but I couldn’t get it to run so I could chase it. Eventually, it went to go stand in a small pond. No fresh meat tonight, I guess. I should be adjusting the parka so it fits my current shape tonight, but instead I’m studying this drawing again. I think if I figure some more of it out, it will go a long way to understanding how world-warpers work their craft. I won’t go back to the Community hall just yet - this is a very interesting puzzle.

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