Cubs and cliath
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littlesilvertipI've been trying to get my head straight. It's worked, sort of. Not really. But I'm trying, at least.
Met a cub. Never got his name. Never got his auspice either. He insisted he had no auspice (no "Moon Job") repeatedly. When I asked him if he just didn't know it (or have a name yet). He stomped off. I got more pissed, and demanded he submit. He frenzied. That was fun. He got me a few times, so I went to go rest. That was a mistake. So much... thought. Feelings. Other shit. I've started looking into flames, trying to find answers to my questions. They're not readily coming to me.
The day after was nothing but chores, and avoiding my own thoughts. Studying magic has been good for that. I feel like I'm close to something big, but elusive. I also made up a little pouch for my iqmiq and the herbs, so I don't have to haul my poke around everywhere. I'm not keeping anything sanctified, because it's easy enough to do that when I need it. I also checked my traps - some good stuff. I'm pretty pleased.
I've been sleeping terribly enough that I decided I needed to get things... sorted out. Really sorted out. The caern's been good for that. I started a small fire to try and sat around watching it. I don't know when, but Unfinished Business came up on me, and scared me half to death. I damn near killed her again. Maybe it's because I was watching the fire in war form. That seems likely.
I talked to her about her insolence, and eyerolling, and lack of control, and told her that I would invite her to pack with me, but I didn't trust her when she did it so much. She promised me to work on it; this is good. I think with her, my cousin, and myself, we can start to court Uktena as a totem. My cousin showed up, and I told her the good news. They started to play around. They acted like they wanted to spar with each-other, but then turned on me. I fought of Unfinished-Business easily, and then flew away when my cousin charged me. From there, it was easy to use my spear and my gifts to mess with them for a bit, before they realized that if they were going to fight unfair, and I was going to fight unfair, they'd spend most of their time looking for me in trees. I do wonder... if I could fight them both at the same time. I honestly don't know. It would be a challenge...
They sparred. My cousin made comments about honour not being important. I'll have to take her aside and tell her how it's so important to warriors. I don't look forward to that conversation.
I must have really zoned out, losing myself in my thoughts as I looked in the dance of the lights, but when I started paying attention again, they were asking me where to find the ‘cute kin.’ And were talking about relationships they had in the past, and how they didn’t know how we balance being a wolf person with… reproduction. It was all very awkward for me. I think they realized this, but I told them I just had many problems for those in high rank to be troubled over. It’s a small lie.
When they left, I found that they put more thoughts into my head that I had untangled before they got there. I’ve spent the rest of the day trying to clear this. It hasn’t been very successful.
Met a cub. Never got his name. Never got his auspice either. He insisted he had no auspice (no "Moon Job") repeatedly. When I asked him if he just didn't know it (or have a name yet). He stomped off. I got more pissed, and demanded he submit. He frenzied. That was fun. He got me a few times, so I went to go rest. That was a mistake. So much... thought. Feelings. Other shit. I've started looking into flames, trying to find answers to my questions. They're not readily coming to me.
The day after was nothing but chores, and avoiding my own thoughts. Studying magic has been good for that. I feel like I'm close to something big, but elusive. I also made up a little pouch for my iqmiq and the herbs, so I don't have to haul my poke around everywhere. I'm not keeping anything sanctified, because it's easy enough to do that when I need it. I also checked my traps - some good stuff. I'm pretty pleased.
I've been sleeping terribly enough that I decided I needed to get things... sorted out. Really sorted out. The caern's been good for that. I started a small fire to try and sat around watching it. I don't know when, but Unfinished Business came up on me, and scared me half to death. I damn near killed her again. Maybe it's because I was watching the fire in war form. That seems likely.
I talked to her about her insolence, and eyerolling, and lack of control, and told her that I would invite her to pack with me, but I didn't trust her when she did it so much. She promised me to work on it; this is good. I think with her, my cousin, and myself, we can start to court Uktena as a totem. My cousin showed up, and I told her the good news. They started to play around. They acted like they wanted to spar with each-other, but then turned on me. I fought of Unfinished-Business easily, and then flew away when my cousin charged me. From there, it was easy to use my spear and my gifts to mess with them for a bit, before they realized that if they were going to fight unfair, and I was going to fight unfair, they'd spend most of their time looking for me in trees. I do wonder... if I could fight them both at the same time. I honestly don't know. It would be a challenge...
They sparred. My cousin made comments about honour not being important. I'll have to take her aside and tell her how it's so important to warriors. I don't look forward to that conversation.
I must have really zoned out, losing myself in my thoughts as I looked in the dance of the lights, but when I started paying attention again, they were asking me where to find the ‘cute kin.’ And were talking about relationships they had in the past, and how they didn’t know how we balance being a wolf person with… reproduction. It was all very awkward for me. I think they realized this, but I told them I just had many problems for those in high rank to be troubled over. It’s a small lie.
When they left, I found that they put more thoughts into my head that I had untangled before they got there. I’ve spent the rest of the day trying to clear this. It hasn’t been very successful.
