Hide and seek v. the kin.
Thursday, 3 April 2014 23:00![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
littlesilvertipHiding. I was hiding. Leave it to a bird to find me, while I stayed away from Nova. She came down, and asked me why I looked wrong. I told her everything was fine, but she didn’t believe it. She said she wanted to help - like she helped with the mage? I told her off for that, and she said I was being silly. Meh. All telling things I told her, thinking she’d keep her beak shut? Yeah, that is silly. She’s in denial that he stares at people, and told me I was being crazy. Aren’t birds supposed to be observant?
She claimed she wanted to try Jaguar Leaf, but she didn’t look interested when she tried it. She talked me into talking to her. I told her about Nova, she told me I should hit her if she tried anything. But then she said she didn’t say that. She said no one is forcing me to, you know, do that. Well, no… but they’re still looking. Or wanting to. I got out of there when I could.
I didn’t know how long Nova’d be around, so I hid away from the lake until I could be sure. I managed to even avoid even the wendigo, since I knew they’d give me a hard time. Well, managed for a while. Eventually Unfinished Business’s feather chasing (She does Run With the Wind regularly) accidentally too her to me. I hid up on a log, trying to blend in with the snow, but she spot me eventually. I told her to go away, so she wouldn’t lead Nova to me but she wouldn’t. She threatened to bite Nova, and I had to tell her not to. It’s not that I don’t like Nova. I just… I just don’t want to do that with her. Or anyone. Not like this.
Unfinished Business reminded me it’s not bad - even if it feels that way - it’s our duty. I… she’s right. I’ve been saying that for years. But the thought of doing it… I nearly frenzied again. It’s been rough. I don’t know what’s going on with me anymore. It’s all these damned nightmares, and Nova, and Black-Light poking at me, and mages stealing wolves, and… I ended up telling Unfinished Business about the nightmare I’d been having. I don’t remember why, but I swore her not to tell anyone. The dream about the nephandic rituals. I left a lot of details out, but… She seemed to think I needed protected for real. She’s young and naïve still. Tried to talk me going back down to the lake. Maybe. Maybe if Nova’s gone.
Maybe.
She claimed she wanted to try Jaguar Leaf, but she didn’t look interested when she tried it. She talked me into talking to her. I told her about Nova, she told me I should hit her if she tried anything. But then she said she didn’t say that. She said no one is forcing me to, you know, do that. Well, no… but they’re still looking. Or wanting to. I got out of there when I could.
I didn’t know how long Nova’d be around, so I hid away from the lake until I could be sure. I managed to even avoid even the wendigo, since I knew they’d give me a hard time. Well, managed for a while. Eventually Unfinished Business’s feather chasing (She does Run With the Wind regularly) accidentally too her to me. I hid up on a log, trying to blend in with the snow, but she spot me eventually. I told her to go away, so she wouldn’t lead Nova to me but she wouldn’t. She threatened to bite Nova, and I had to tell her not to. It’s not that I don’t like Nova. I just… I just don’t want to do that with her. Or anyone. Not like this.
Unfinished Business reminded me it’s not bad - even if it feels that way - it’s our duty. I… she’s right. I’ve been saying that for years. But the thought of doing it… I nearly frenzied again. It’s been rough. I don’t know what’s going on with me anymore. It’s all these damned nightmares, and Nova, and Black-Light poking at me, and mages stealing wolves, and… I ended up telling Unfinished Business about the nightmare I’d been having. I don’t remember why, but I swore her not to tell anyone. The dream about the nephandic rituals. I left a lot of details out, but… She seemed to think I needed protected for real. She’s young and naïve still. Tried to talk me going back down to the lake. Maybe. Maybe if Nova’s gone.
Maybe.
