Useless Cliath
Thursday, 20 March 2014 09:43![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
littlesilvertipI woke up to clawing at my own flesh, trying to rip parts of myself off with just my fingers. I don’t remember going to sleep in homid, but I also only remember snippets of the dream I had. Nephandic, again. It’s probably a good thing I didn’t stay in lupus, or else I could have caused some serious harm to myself, if I’d chewed off something. I felt… greasy for the rest of the day.
I laid off the the Elementalism during the day, instead using the time to try and scout for new herbs to replace the ones I destroyed. Most things aren’t in season, but I collected more willow bark, and in the lowlands I found a few relevant mushrooms that weren’t fruiting. So, I have that going for me. It took the most of the day, and it was dark before I was going home. On the way I gave a howl for my cousin.
She came over, and I told her to follow me. We stepped into the Umbra and I started asking her about Uktena - whether she was going to fuck things up for our attempt at packing. But when I told her I wanted to talk to her about totems, she make this motion, like we were going to be talking about the Grandmother, or the white-Jesus. Oh, god, she doesn’t worship the spirits, does she? I tried to tell her how spirit-worship is misguided, but she was an idiot about the whole thing.
When we got back to talking about whether she could be good for an Uktena pack, she as even worse. I asked her what she’d learned, and it was nothing. She barely learnt anything from the wyrmcomer place, either. She was asking /me/ to teach her. Like she had not… drive to learn, outside what I could teach. Her and the damn Little Crow, needing to be fawned over like puppies. I’ve had enough of their shit.
We reached the lake by then, and I took the next step in mastering the elementals. I knocked a series of breathing holes in the ice with a boulder, and then I called out one of the water elementals below it. I taunted it until it as good and angry, to let it know just what I was going to do, before I dove in. Or, I tried to dive in. My cousin grabbed me, throwing me off balance and making me fall in. I damn near drowned right then, from inhaling water. But, after I got myself right, I swam the lake.
The elemental jostled me around as I did, making it hard for me to swim in a straight line. This would have been… much easier with two lungs. But I made it across to the other side before I blacked out from the cold. I went over to tell the Elemental I’d beat it in its own domain. It wasn’t happy. Maybe I layered on the taunts too thick. I told it I /earned/ its respect, and it… well, it didn’t tell me ‘no’. It did bash me across the head. As I slid across the ice ass-first, I got a fleeting glimpse of the summoning sign for water.
Two elementals down, two to go.
I get out, and my cousin starts going on about ‘why you do that?’ and ‘you’re so stupid!’ and whine whine whine. I snapped on her, and told her what I thought of all the stupid, needy wolves around here. She got all cry-y, but forget that - I left.
Big fire. I made a big fire to get me warm. I’m going to get some frostbite, but that’s what staying out of breed is for.
I laid off the the Elementalism during the day, instead using the time to try and scout for new herbs to replace the ones I destroyed. Most things aren’t in season, but I collected more willow bark, and in the lowlands I found a few relevant mushrooms that weren’t fruiting. So, I have that going for me. It took the most of the day, and it was dark before I was going home. On the way I gave a howl for my cousin.
She came over, and I told her to follow me. We stepped into the Umbra and I started asking her about Uktena - whether she was going to fuck things up for our attempt at packing. But when I told her I wanted to talk to her about totems, she make this motion, like we were going to be talking about the Grandmother, or the white-Jesus. Oh, god, she doesn’t worship the spirits, does she? I tried to tell her how spirit-worship is misguided, but she was an idiot about the whole thing.
When we got back to talking about whether she could be good for an Uktena pack, she as even worse. I asked her what she’d learned, and it was nothing. She barely learnt anything from the wyrmcomer place, either. She was asking /me/ to teach her. Like she had not… drive to learn, outside what I could teach. Her and the damn Little Crow, needing to be fawned over like puppies. I’ve had enough of their shit.
We reached the lake by then, and I took the next step in mastering the elementals. I knocked a series of breathing holes in the ice with a boulder, and then I called out one of the water elementals below it. I taunted it until it as good and angry, to let it know just what I was going to do, before I dove in. Or, I tried to dive in. My cousin grabbed me, throwing me off balance and making me fall in. I damn near drowned right then, from inhaling water. But, after I got myself right, I swam the lake.
The elemental jostled me around as I did, making it hard for me to swim in a straight line. This would have been… much easier with two lungs. But I made it across to the other side before I blacked out from the cold. I went over to tell the Elemental I’d beat it in its own domain. It wasn’t happy. Maybe I layered on the taunts too thick. I told it I /earned/ its respect, and it… well, it didn’t tell me ‘no’. It did bash me across the head. As I slid across the ice ass-first, I got a fleeting glimpse of the summoning sign for water.
Two elementals down, two to go.
I get out, and my cousin starts going on about ‘why you do that?’ and ‘you’re so stupid!’ and whine whine whine. I snapped on her, and told her what I thought of all the stupid, needy wolves around here. She got all cry-y, but forget that - I left.
Big fire. I made a big fire to get me warm. I’m going to get some frostbite, but that’s what staying out of breed is for.
